Dear someone,
I dont
know how to say it. I don’t know how to begin. But, let me say sorry. Sorry for
all the words that I’ve said to you, for the words that may hurt you. I really didn’t
mean anything. You’ll never understand till you get the same feeling like I do.
Love often makes us selfish, sorry.
And maybe
this is why. But as I told you, I’ll do anything. Anything to make you closer. Anything
that could make you mine. i don’t care with what people say about you.
Although
sometimes, I do feel afraid. I don’t know how exactly your feeling is for me. I
don’t know whether you’ll leave me someday. I don’t know if it’s just your
loneliness, you just need someone who cares of you. I really don’t know. And I really
don’t care. Let me be a foolish.
Every night,
every second I stare at your painting. And it reminds me how your hand could
make it. Your face, your lips, your smile, even I remember the movement of your
hands when you were making it. Or, the face when you slept at my family room. The
t-shirt that you wore which has a statement “a wise woman, choose ____ people
for her husband”. I remember that. I remember when you asked me to make an
instant noodle. I remember when you hug me and said I love you and you aksed me
back. I also remember the pain when seeing you cried about your ill.
Maybe,
it means nothing for you, or maybe you’ve even forgotten all those things.
I don’t
care.
All I wanna
do rite now is loving you without seeing your goodness or weakness. Dear, I want
you to know that I really do.
But
one thing, if you love me, stay. If you don’t, leave. That’s it. No matter how
much I need you.
Now I also
don’t care how many hours that you’ll have for me, i just wanna meet you,
seeing your smile, even just a second. I do believe that you’ll never leave me
alone. You’ll take care of me. I believe that.
I’ll
see you soon, dear :*
